I am far from being a child, but that does not mean that my feelings are immune to scorching words of beratement, or to being hurt. Nor does it indicate that I am some stoic creature, able to brush venomous words off without any thought of what prompted the ill words in the first place. Not to say that I map my life according to the judgments and criticisms of others, but as an empath, I feel quite deeply – especially the pangs of my fellow man. Therefore were there is angst, I seek to instill harmony and peace. Where there is melancholy, I strive to share joy. And where frowns abide, my charge is to bring on a smile. Needless to state, but when someone that I care about is angry with me, I would like to know why and do my best to remedy the situation.
Now, having found myself in a somber mood, I trudged over to my absolute favorite spot – the sturdy picnic table that weighed more than I do, situated in a semi-shady spot. I hopped my butt up and scooted back until all but my feet were atop the flat surface. I stretched-out and gazed upon the heavens – a sea of baby-blue, dotted with cottony puffs of immature clouds. Staring at the sky is always peaceful, reminding me how small we are compared to the vast universe – yet we are created in the image of the one who formed all things, heavens and earth.
The open expansion seemed to move before my eyes, but science had proven that all things are in constant motion and the latent knowledge that the earth beneath the very table on which I lay was spinning gave way to a sense of floating. The lightheaded sensation that resulted – almost vertigo, reminded me of roller-coasters, with their slow ascension, followed by the weightless plunge. I could (and have, on occasion) lay right there on that table, watching the sky for hours, soaking in the wondrous beauty of the void and feeling as if I could fall into it at any moment – fall in and drown inside the big nothing.
In truth, it only looks like nothing but blue. I know that just beyond the stratosphere lies an infinite expanse of other worlds.